♥ How many times must I say I'm sorry? ♥
Spring in Italy is no doubt one of the most beautiful things I have witnessed. It’s the changing colors as if life is alive outside of you.
Today my son’s team is scheduled to play baseball. It looks like the game will be cancelled. Still, as a team, we have to drive over to the field, show up, so we can be marked present so we can turn around and go home. It’s not so fun considering it would be so nice to stay in today and watch the rain.
I’ve never liked driving in the rain. I grew up in California where it only rained about ten days a year. If it would rain I would look out the window and literally have to convince myself it would be ok to go out. Sometimes I wouldn’t be so convincing.
As I get older, I’m getting more used to it though. Maybe I’m a little bit more adventurous. I certainly WAS fearless when I was younger.
Do you think people get more fearful as they get older?
I’m not so certain. Perhaps it depends on the day.
So much has been going on in the last few days that I feel completely spent. I get a lot of encouragement from friends as I approach projects, like writing, translating, teaching, help organizing the May 1st party, and painting. But today, all I feel like doing is nothing.
♥ You're beautiful. Seriously ♥
Do you ever feel that way? Just like doing nothing?
With so much on my plate, it’s easier to disappear into my words and into my thoughts.
Last week I decided to close the blog for a couple of days. My students at school said well done Prof. It’s so true. You write a blog and suddenly your life is public. Well not all of it is public. It’s ok to have a down day too. A day of rest.
Nulla si crea, nulla si distrugge.
At least my blog and life is available for commentary. As you guys know I don’t take criticism well at all, so when someone says something negative about the blog I think well then forget it. Why am I doing it? For you? or for me?
Sometimes things just seem to want to create themselves. Like spring. Like children. They grow out of nothing. God is so creative.
♥Today I will very consciously do one thing at a time.♥
There’s a beautiful saying in Italian that says ‘nulla si crea nulla si distrugge’, which means nothing can be created and nothing can be destroyed. To me, it means anything I have created can easily be destroyed.
The opposite is always true. They are all just words, recycled reused, turned around and tweaked to make new meanings and then to clear away with a swipe of an eraser, the tap of a delete key. There they go. Goodbye.
Oh Julie you certainly are being philosophical today, aren’t you? Yes. well. People aren’t just straight forward all the time, are they? What you see is what you get? Hmmm. Perhaps. I think there is more.
Not like donkey on Shrek who says we all have layers like an onion. The onion layer is a bit cliche. I can’t describe them.
Multi-faceted? I don’t have a label for how I’m feeling today. Today, I’m changing the name of the blog just for today to Julie’s blog. Not so fun today. No nicknames today. It’s raining. It’s spring. It’s Italy.
Julie
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