I was reading through my archives this morning and getting a bit nostalgic. I was looking over the people who I have met through blogging and how blogging has changed my life.
I was thinking how thankful I made that decision to blog a couple of years ago. I mean, through my blog not only did I get a little creative outlet, I set up my little shop. I’m not sure how it is going to go. Sometimes, I feel as if it is a little self defeating. Other days I feel like it’s going great.
I don’t know where this post is going to go. That’s okay. I’m going with it. I’m going to let the thoughts just flow here now and I’m in the mood to share. I have so many thoughts. Is it possible I can just stop them? Organize them? Make sense of them?
Write them?
I’m trying. I’m trying to make sense of the world we live in. The world the includes social media. I am trying to understand how the 500+ people who I have on my fb friends’ list have entered into my life, if I know them at all.
Of course, some of them yes. But when I started sharing on facebook it was really just to show my sister and mom who live half way around the world, pictures.
Then I had problems with privacy. I don’t mind sharing photos sometimes but not all of the time. The ones that are up are up. But, lately, I just don’t know.
It’s all about being public. And private.
Maybe that’s why I sometimes just recycle old posts or put favorite posts on my front page. I just take an old post that’s good and change the date. That’s fair, right? It is my blog after all, right? Can I just write on one date and publish it on another date? Is that lying if the post says one date and I wrote it on another? Like my about page says, my goal in life is to be honest.
Not always easy. Good goal though.
Prayed last night with my family about my work situation.
It’s dramatic and depressing. I lost my job in May and I’m not at all okay with that. All of my posts, all of my life has been dedicated toward teaching. Yes, I found a small teaching job at four hours per week, but that’s not enough to live on, to get by on and frankly my savings is dwindling.
Crying. Laughing. Such an emotional git I am. So darn human and vulnerable.
I look at my pretty paintings and they cheer me up and they tell me a story. I think of your comments that just play in my head over and over much like a song you can’t get out of your head. I think about the girl who says look at her, look at her, she’s got it, the art, the house, the husband the kids.
I try to live in a state of blessings a state of grace.
I try.
I’m no where near there. I call on my parents. I call on my family. I call on my best friend. I call but no one seems to have the answers for me. Only me of course. And God.
What makes me happy is my children. I wish and I’m saying it here loud and clear, I wish someone told me that motherhood would be what it is! They try, don’t they? What it means to make Christmas happen. What it means to add the sunshine into the day, to be a a guide when you don’t know how, to give of yourself completely to try to find words for something you cannot possibly explain with words, but only with glances.
My readership.
My readership has grown and changed and slowly evolved into something I can’t understand or make heads or tails of. It’s a strange thing, it is. There are the people who I started blogging with who have stopped reading and stopped commenting and stopped blogging. Then there are the lovely ones who I’ve met along the way who have entered into my heart.
Then there are the people who I care most about who send me love and encouragement. Then there are lately the non commentors who quite frankly just I don’t know how to say it, I don’t want to say freak me out, I just want to say, I wish they would just say hello. Maybe they are shy. Maybe they are just reading. Maybe they are just observing. Who knows.
Maybe that’s why I stopped writing. Because I see person after person stop in read what I say and then move on. Why? Why read? Why even visit?
I know, I like to read and visit too. I’ll give you a concrete example. One of my favorite bloggers, actually two of them, don’t have facebook accounts. When they write a post, it’s not unusual for them to receive up to ten comments on the same day.
I’m not saying I’m comment deprived, I’m just saying, I don’t post regularly, I have way too many friends on facebook, and I can’t make sense of this social networking, so I’m not writing. Just recycling.
Does it really matter if someone comments here or on facebook?
That should keep away any visitors, huh? Also, like I’ve said before, I cannot stand email. I just don’t like it. So now that people get my posts by email, it really bothers me. It’s as if I’m writing straight to you. I’m not trying to do that! I’m just trying to get my thoughts on my journal and make them public. I didn’t mean to send you an email. I know you opted for it, but it’s just not my thing. I delete upwards of 30 emails a day. I can’t stand it!
So there you have it. My view on why I stopped writing. At least for now. You never know though. People are strange. They can change their minds at a whim.
On a happy note, my shops are doing well. I appreciate that. You are welcome to visit my stores and see my art work here and here.



























To blog or not to blog? That is my silly question.
Before even publishing a blog I had in mind what I what I thought a cool blog would be like. I think the first time I had ever even read was one that seemed like a Portland Oregon Taxi Driver Conversations blog. I thought, I bet that’s interesting or funny and it was.
I don’t have the link. It was like six years ago.
Then, I thought about what I liked in a blog. I thought, I want to make sure it has an order, chronological, or whatever, and a coolish design. I mean easy on the eye.
I thought one of the most important things on a blog was a place that people could comment.
Then, I thought, Gosh, if I were to ever publish a blog, I want a bunch of those comments that you see on the back of the book. You do know what I am talking about, right? Like when you read Best Book Ever or I just couldn’t put it down.
Or
Five times on the NY Times Best Seller List.
I’m not sure if it is true or not but I’m quite certain that that last comment is on every book out there. At least it seems to me it is.
In my humble opinion, a good blog should have a nice design, easy user interaction by means of comments and easy navigation.
I’m not so certain if it should have self promoting comments like the ones I have in my right side bar that I hear I should update now and again.
To blog or not to blog?
A positive aspect of blogging is having a creative outlet to share my thoughts that people can comment on.
A negative aspect of blogging is having a creative outlet to share my thoughts that people can comment on.
That begs the question if it’s good idea to have a blog. I know I love reading about people’s lives around the world and have become friends with many bloggers.
My eyes have been open to friends’ lives in New York, in Seattle, in Japan, in Singapore, basically, EVERYWHERE there is internet.
Figure it out. If you can't just figure it out, then figure it out.
Bloggers are the friendliest community I’ve ever hung out with. They are sort of like computer hacks in my opinion in a little way because you have to understand some basics like how to type and how to do some silly coding stuff called widgets and things and html. Fun fun stuff. I actually love it.
Bloggers are also super great at helping each other, like when we exchange ways of adding links known as a blog roll, or graphics, or recipes. You know, exchanging information. I remember one nice lady who helped me out with my five tabs I have at the top of my blog. Just ask, they say.
I will never forget the kindness of people who have sent me gifts and encouraged me. That’s just way too nice. Thank you again if I haven’t said it lately. I also got so many nice REAL Christmas cards too saying things like thank you for giving me a glimpse into your life in Italy. That’s encouraging.
Then of course, my facebook account got totally out of hand. I accepted friend requests from all kinds of friends. When I had like only 100 friends on facebook I remember looking at people who had like 500 friends and thinking, wow, how could they know all of those people?
In fact, I even wrote a friend and asked, How do you know all of those people?
The reply I got back was I just do.
Ha ha.
Ask a silly question, get the answer.
I used to love sharing pictures. Now I just like feel like wow, everyone can see my pictures. But the problem is that I want to share pictures but not all the time. I want to share pictures when I feel like it and not all pictures with everybody.
Also, once I add a friend I feel guilty removing them. I think, well, I could just leave that persons picture on my account. What difference could it make? Then I think, you don’t know that person. Just remove them. Then I think, well, what if I hurt someone’s feelings. I don’t want to hurt anyone’s feelings.
Then I think of the brave friends who have just deleted their entire accounts. It’s kind of like stopping smoking I’d imagine if I smoked. I don’t.
Then there are the true friends who I couldn’t live without having in my facebook account. I get excited and happy when I see your lives, when you joke with me, when you like my silly quotes, when you share a link, when you tell stories about your lives. I like that.
What’s your take?
1. What do you think are the aspects of a good blog?
2. Is it quality writing, quantity writing or both?
3. Do you like more pictures, less pictures, or something in the middle?
4. If you have a blog, what kinds of things do you like to write about?
5. Have you ever deleted your facebook account? Are you glad you did?
6. What do you think about people who have way too many friends on facebook? Do you think that is just getting out of hand, like an unkept closet?
Thanks for leaving your comments. You know I love them.
Hope this post reaches you with love, luck and happiness.
Julie
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